for the moments i feel faint...

I throw up my hands
"Oh, the impossibilities"
Frustrated and tired
Where do I go from here?
Now I'm searching for the confidence I've lost so willingly
Overcoming these obstacles is overcoming my fear

I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
Gather my insufficiencies and
place them in your hands, place them in your hands, place them in your hands...
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why do i always underestimate my Jesus...
He will be strong, He will be strong...

even when i am not, because i never will be...

selah...
EM

fighter verses...

Psalm 27:1-3
The Lord is my light and my salvation, whom shall I fear? The Lord is the defense of my life, who shall I dread?
When evildoers came to devour my flesh, my adversaries and my enemies, they stumbled and fell.
Though a host encamp against me, my heart shall not fear. Though a war rise up against me, in spite of this I shall be confident.

part 1... i memorized it. Hopefully i'll have all 14 verses memorized in the next couple of weeks. the whole thing before July? totally doable...

hmmm.....
selah

EM

i should have come running a lot sooner...

Hungry, I come to you
For I know You satisfy
I am empty, but I know
Your love does not run dry

So I wait for you
So I wait for You
I’m falling on my knees
Offering all of me
Jesus, You’re all this heart is living for

Broken, I run to You
For Your arms are open wide
I am weary, but I know
Your touch restores my life

So I wait for you
So I wait for You
I’m falling on my knees
Offering all of me
Jesus, You’re all this heart is living for
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i've been waiting to run.
waiting well isn't standing still.
waiting well is waiting for God to do the big things while you learn how to do the little things.
like reading and praying... and learning what trust is.
and running every day to the foot of the cross, depositing everything the night has placed in my mind, and picking up the new mercy he promises.

"Satisfy me with your grace. Give me the mercy I need. Don't let me try hard and fail. Teach me to run steady on next to you... Teach me to trust Your heart and disregard mine."

selah...

EM

NA 08 cont...

maybe i shouldn't skip this song next time i listen to this CD... because i need to hear it. i need to be reminded that neither death nor life can separate me from the love of God... somehow i can put "Christ died for my sins" and "God loves me" together... John 3:16 says they go together, but i don't always believe it or even see it...

thanks mr. wertz...

I will not take my love away
When praises cease and seasons change
While the whole world turns the other way
I will not take my love away

I will not leave you all alone
When striving leads you far from home
And there's no yield for what you've sown
I will not leave you all alone

I will give you what you need
In plenty or in poverty
Forever, always, look to me
And I will give you what you need
I will not take my love away

hmmm... selah

EM

NA 08

Talk to yourself.
Have God's word ready to talk to yourself and others.
God loves you.

Those are three little bits that i would like to apply to my life. Well, really 2. "God loves me!" is a concept. It's something to inform your whole life, not something to apply like the other two.... so here i go.

Talk to yourself, don't listen to yourself. I was so happy when C.J. informed me that i was not the only person who constantly talks to herself... apparently everyone talks to themselves, and everyone listens to themselves even more. But listening is bad... John Piper helped us to further understand the art of talking to ourselves when he pleaded with us to memorize scripture so we could fight with it... to fight temptations such as doubt, fear, anxiety, uselessness, quitting, greed, bitterness... Piper and C.J. reminded us that it is the word of God that informs our joy, and when we listen to ourselves we find our soul troubled and overwhelmed by impossible odds... but the word of God informs us with the truth we need to employ the power of the Spirit in our lives.
basically... listen to yourself, and your soul will be troubled. talk to yourselves with the word of God and you will find your joy.

now... for the message that overwhelmed me...
God loves you. You are adopted. You are a child of God. God loves his children.
God loves me.
All throughout C.J.'s message i just kept singing "Jesus loves me this I know/ For the Bible tells me so." and i got why C.J. gave us this message... because God loves us. and we only know when we read the word of God.

I don't even have words to to describe how this effected me, because i don't know. C.J. said at the beginning of the message that this message was for those of us who were more aware of our sin that of the love of God. i felt like jumping up and down and saying... THAT'S ME!!! right here... i have issues. I know He loves me and sent His son to die for me... but He loves me because He has to... doesn't He?
No... He loves me because He is a loving God. I only love Him, and others, because i am created in His image... i am created to love...
i may sound like a hippie, but it is still true.

.... i shall post more later....

selah

EM